Am I rationalizing or have I lost hope

Had an email "discussion" with a colleague of mine today, he's a Bushie. He's main news sources seem to be Hannity and wherever Hannity tells him to look. Anywho, we debated various opinions, he denied a few facts, but this is common among the Bushies, who I honestly believe have to fool themselves into supporting a man who stand for nothing and will lie about anything Rove instructs him to. But, I digress. So, he points out a few of the polls out today showing Bush continuing with a lead. I don't buy the polls much, but I do think the Bush probably has a lead today...Although I'm at a loss to understand it. Iraq, the economy, just what has he done for America? Somehow the discussion gets to the Popular Vote in 2000 and this Bushie vehemently denies that Gore won the popular vote. Not just talking about the "election" but the actual popular vote. So, I go to the FEC website where I see, Yup, Gore still won the Popular vote.

So, I ask myself, and some other anti-Bushies, how can you argue with (or better yet, show the error of their ways) a group of people who are so detached from reality. Is this what Fox News was wrought? How do you argue the finer points of deficit spending or Medicare with someone who BELIEVES Bush won the popular vote?

These are the people who are voting for Bush. This is where I think I lost hope. There is a part of me that has crept into my thinking in recent days that I want Bush to win so that he can deal with all the Bullshit he has created over the past 4 years. Crappy economy, deficit, fixing Iraq, dealing with terrorism, Iran and North Korea, helping in Sudan, education, etc. But, he's not going to fix it, it will get worse. (I do think that the upside to a Bush win is that the GOP won't see the WH for another 12 years after the Bush disasters that await us). I think, can Kerry (or anyone) fix the mess Bush has created in 4 years? Since that's probably not likely, let Bush take the fall for his own incompetence.

Have I resigned myself to four more disastrous years of Bush, a President who won't have to worry about re-election and can therefore ruin America even more? Have I lost hope in Kerry's lame campaign (watching Howard Dean on Charlie Rose did nothing to lift my spirits about Kerry's unspirited campaign). I watch Scarborough and the Fox News hacks continue to pound away about CBS. I watch Kerry give a speech where he finally says things he should have said months ago about homeland security, Iraq, etc. Intelligent things, factual things. But, the "liberal media" doesn't pick up on it.

So, anyway, I have a sinking feeling. I cry for America tonight. I just hope I don't cry again on Nov. 3.